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lisagwilkins · Site Administrator

RE: Authorized Personnel Only, AU Skate fict for the FB fan fict contest

Starlight · Charlie's Angel

Awesome job yet again Jaci! I love all the twists and turns so far. Can't wait to see where you're going with this next!:D

sawyersmine · Hollaback girl

Thanks again ladies, I still have one more twist, coming, but Im planning on wrapping this up in the next chapter or two, just to be forewarned. But thank you for the awesome reviews. :D

Chapter 5

Kate looked back at the sleeping Sawyer sadly from the other side of her glass cage. So much had gone down between them. She didnt understand her hot and cold feelings for him. She didnt understand a lot of things. Fearing for her life now, and his. Even though she wasnt sure she should be scared for him too. But for some reason, she was. They had been in captivity for almost 48 hours. Kate had been interrogated to the point of almost losing her voice. She remained steadfast in keeping her cover confidential, but even Kate had her limits.

One thing was for certain howeverit was the way Jack treated her, it was like he was a different person. One she never wanted to be intimate with again. She never knew he could be so cruel, so loathing, after all they had been through together, he continued to treat her like dirt under his shoe. She should have been used to that kind of treatment, it was how she grew up, but Kate thought Jack was above all of that. Actually feeling bad when she thought about breaking the news about her and Sawyer as a couple to him. She thought he was a better man, shared the same doubts and grudges about their job that Kate had. But she was wrong, she was oh so wrong about him.

Kate closed her eyes thinking about her life up until this point. Even though it had been a misguided life, she felt now, somehow at the end, even though her arm had been twisted, that she had made the right choice to work with Sawyer and the CIA. She was a good person, despite what others kept telling her. Kate couldnt take the pressure anymore, but she knew if this experience had taught her anything, it was that she wanted to be good.

Feeling like they were waiting on death row, Kate knew it was only a matter of time. A tear fell down her face as she thought about all the potential her life had found, turning over this new leaf, doing something for the good of human kind for once. Finding something more with the man sleeping across from her, Kate thought sadlyWhy did she have to find him now?

Breaking up her thoughts, the guard came in and motioned for Kate to come with him. She wiped off her tears swallowing getting up hesitantly, scared now. And let him shackle her, going in peace, he led her to Director Lockes office.

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"Hello Kate." Director Locke nodded for her to come into his office, and the guard guided her to the chair, he invited her to

"Sit down, please."

Kate met his gaze searching for a human being in there, anything to offer her repentance for what shed done, but he had his poker face on, and he stood up as she sat down. Beginning

"Theres no way we can excuse what youve gotten yourself into Kate, the only option I can offer you is to kill Agent Sawyer and counteract working as a mole for us, with his superiors. Im interested to hear what my adversary, Director Linus has found on me, and this is your one and only chance to get out of here alive."

Kates head swam in a panic, her worst nightmare coming to life. She was being used again, and he wanted her to kill Sawyer? The very man she thought she might love? Kate felt fresh tears begin to fall down her cheek and Locke stepped around offering her a Kleenex

"You might think this is black and white, good versus bad, but your wrong Kate, the CIA is just as corrupt, its simply a race to do business, the only difference is, the CIA pretends they are the good guys with their metals of honor, and codes of conduct, but they are no different Kate."

Kate looked up into his eyes her eyes stormy and she wanted to shout from the rooftops that it wasnt true, that he was the scum of the earth. But a little voice inside her head told her to be quiet, if she just shut up, she might have a chance to get the fuck out of here. And Locke continued

"I know you sympathize with Agent Sawyer, but he lied to you Kate, he lied to us all."

She met his gaze questioningly her breath held thinking she didnt think she could take it if James lied to her too and Locke explained

"He worked under the assumption that he was your partner, that he was one of us, and he didnt tell you."

Kate felt another tear roll down her check, not because of Sawyers lie; it was because of his honesty. Feeling a wave of bittersweet relief, Kate knew she could trust him, he told her the truth, but lied to them to protect her? Locke had no idea that she had been working as a double. If he had, he would have brought it up by nowSawyer did it for her, they might have loosened up on him had he given them her name, but he said nothing.

Kate asked Locke suddenly

"Can I just see him one more time? I just want to talk to him."

Locke looked back at Kate confused now and he replied

"Well, your not going to get anything more out of him than we have Kate, you know our methods."

Kate looked back at him, struggling to keep up the façade, but she did, for James, and Kate nodded

"I know, I just want to say goodbye."

Locke raised his eyebrows reluctant to allow her that right, replying

"Well your just going to make it harder on yourselfbutif you insist Kate."

"Yes, please?" Kate asked him and Locke finally nodded his head in reply, remarking

"Okay Kate, Ill give you 5 minutes but not a moment more."

"Thank you." Kate replied trying to keep her seething feelings for the man and this place under the radar. She got up as the guard was called back in to take her back to Sawyers cell. Knowing this was her last chance.

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Sawyer woke after he heard the door behind Kate shut. He looked over at her empty cell. Worried about her he stood up and tried to look out his glass panel wall, the one that prisoned him in here like a damn animal. And he thought he needed to get her out of here, he needed to get them both out of here. Sawyer knew it was only a matter of time. He was as good as dead waiting in this cell, they both were as good as dead. Monkeying with the door panel he raised his shoulder and groaned in pain as he was forced to reach up and try to jam the mechanism.

They had taken the bullet out of course, without any drugs, with a big pliars, another form of torture as Jack dug deeply into his muscle tissue, twisting it around like a damn batton; he was left to heal without any antibiotics. Sawyer didnt care though, the pain kept him awake, alert. Paying attention to what was going on around him. To Kate who had remained in the cage across from him like a warrior.

And now those bastards had their hands on her again. He would rip them to shreds if they did anything.

"Son of a bitch!" He groaned out feeling surges of pain shoot through his shoulder as he reached over again trying to hit the computer lock with his elbow. He knew how these systems worked, just a small blow and it would turn to the default mode, and Sawyer could take it from there. Just a few more jabs, he felt like his arm was ready to fall off when he heard footsteps. Shit one of the guards was coming! Sawyer hid in his little bathroom stall, intending to choke the living daylights out of his friendly visitor. When he heard the familiar click and light steps, Sawyer saw a flash of flesh and then he darted his good arm out to hold the guards neck, surprising him.

"Choke on this asshole!" he put his hands on the guards neck abrasively. Sawyer growled, but stepping out of the light he saw the familiar hands pawing at his arms and finally her face, and he let go quickly in surprise

"Kate?"

She held her neck and coughed

"KateIm sor" She held out her hand to signal him to stop talking. Still coughing Sawyer quickly filled a glass of water for her from his sink and he gave it to her looking around he didnt see any guards, thinkingFuck, I could have killed her

And he breathed out worriedly watching her as she took a swig of water and he asked her again

"Kate, what are you doing here?"

She met his gaze with longing in her eyes. Despite him just trying to strangle her, Kate knew it was a case of mistaken identity and she felt this insatiable need for him overcome her as he met her gaze questioningly, a moment lingering between them.

And then she went up pulling his neck down to meet her mouth and kissed him passionately. Just missing his kiss, his touch. Tasting the saltiness from his split lip, he looked like he had been through hell and back, but to her, he was beautiful, and Sawyer kissed her back, finally, the surprise of her mouth on his fading as he fell into the haze of her taste, her mouth, touch and sounds. He could kiss her forever, all the pain and their surroundings forgotten, his hand tangled in her hair and he pulled her closer to him.

Finally pulling away with a gasp, Kate explained quickly

"Im supposed to kill you."

Sawyer met her gaze with creased brows feeling like she had just cut him, and he ran his hand through her hair tenderly, knowing if he could pick anyone to kill him, it would be Kate. He knew this moment would come, and he didnt blame her, she was probably doing this to save her life, a life he was willing to die for and Sawyer finally nodded understandingly, looking down at the floor, he replied quietly

"Its okay Freckles."

Kate put her hand on his face hating that look on his face, that look of defeat, and she vowed to never see that look again, putting her hand on his stubble covered cheek, forcing him to look at her and Kate replied in a whisper

"Im going to get us out of here."

She met his blue eyes with blazes of green and Sawyer creased his brows again. Kate didnt give him time to react however as she leaned in to hold him, her words whispers in his ears and Kate instructed

"The gun is in the back of my pants, take it out and then hold it to my neck."

Sawyer pulled back and looked into her gaze his eyes tortured. But he knew what had to be done and he leaned in to kiss her again. His tongue twirling with hers telling her it would be alright, and Kate almost forgot what they were doing until she heard the click of the gun, feeling the cold metal push against her neck as Sawyer held her to him and called for the guard.

"Hey!"

He walked Kate up to the glass and tapped the gun

"Hey! Which one of you idiots let her in here with an armed weapon?"

The guard came up seeing his eyes widened and he called the director. A few minutes later Director Locke followed by a fuming Agent Sheppard came storming up, their eyes wide, refusing to open the door, Jack spat back

"Thats bullet proof glass so dont even try shooting Sawyer!"

Sawyer growled and stated his demands

"Well since you locked my assassin in here with me, it looks like I dont got a choice boys, if you dont open this door right now, I shoot her.

Jack looked back at Kate and replied nonchalantly

"Go ahead."

Kates eyes blazed fire on Jack.

"Now hold on a minute Sawyer!" Locke decided to pipe in and he replied

"It doesnt matter if you kill her because as soon as that door opens, your as good as dead anyway, so are you sure you want to fight us on this? You can go out the honorable way, or go out in a blood bath."

Sawyers eyes narrowed as Kate looked onto the men outside pleadingly. And he whispered to her"fall down and then tell them everything."

There was a hitch in Kates breath, as she panicked not knowing if she was ready to do that, but her plan to bargain with her life obviously wasnt working. These men didnt care about her, just like the rest of them. And Kate shed a small tear.

"What are you telling her to do?" Locke asked unable to hear his words behind the glass, as Kate put on an act crying

"Just givin this little bitch her last rights is all!" Sawyer declared hissing and he replied

"Last chance boys!"

But neither man acted and then Sawyer put the gun behind Kates back.

"Fine, lets get this show on the road then, blood bath it is!" Sawyer declared and fired off a round to the side hitting the floor next to Kates foot, the heat of the gun burned Kates back as she groaned in pain and fell to the ground.

And then she began pleading with them

"I knew he was a double all along, now youll never know what the CIA had planned for this agency, its big, bigger than anything you can imagine, and your all going to rot in Federal prison when this is all over! Director Linus has already infiltrated this branch, youll never find all of us!!!!"

Kate cried pretending she was dying and Locke yelled at the guard

"Open that door! Open it!!!"

The guard did as he asked and there were guns all over the room as Kates eyes fluttered, Sawyers pistol aimed at all of them.

And Locke demanded"Tell me what the plan was you traitorous little bitch!"

"She aint gonna tell you!" Sawyer declared with a smirk, and that was all he needed to distract Locke, causing him to look back at him, Kate used her heel to round kick Locke in the face knocking him back. Jack stepped in with his gun shouting at Sawyer

"You asshole! I should have killed you when I had the chance!"

But Sawyer was much faster than Jack and he shot the gun out of Jacks hand piercing a hole through his palm.

Jack cried out in pain, and then Sawyer elbowed the guard knocking him out. Jack came back for more as Kate head butted Locke. He grabbed her ankle much stronger than her and threatened

"You know I killed him dont you, your probation is over Katherine, and your sins must be paid for!"

Kate couldnt believe what she was hearing, if what Locke was saying was true, the threats he had held over her head for the last 3 years had finally paid out. Trying not to let her emotions overcome her in a moment of weakness, she kicked and thrashed. Sawyer grabbed Lockes collar from behind holding the gun to his neck and he replied

"Now your gonna find out how it feels to be locked up Mr. Clean, you and your Nancy boy ass kisser over there!"

Jack struggled to get up and Sawyer shot him down, spurting blood on the wall, he inflicted the same injury Jack had given him and Sawyer bashed Locke over the head.

"Any of you so much as think of comin after us, I promise you wont live to see another sunrise!"

He took Kates hand helping her up, one more kick to Jacks balls before he left and then they closed the door behind them.

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Sawyer hailed a cab, of course they had no cash and the driver threw them out 5 miles in Sawyer didnt want to get the gun involved, because they needed to lay low right now. And he keyed in a random set of codes in an atm machine once they were out. Withdrawing $800 in cash, Sawyer nodded to Kate and replied

"Were gonna need a hotel room for the night."

She was still speechless about everything that had happened. Still in shock from the news that her father was dead and her life was over, as she knew it. Kate barely had time to take it all in before they were being whisked somewhere else.

They found a car lot and Sawyer picked the locks and jumpstarted the car. Pulling Kate in with him he replied

"Cmon Freckles."

Kate looked back at him hesitantly and he offered her his hand replying

"Cmon, we can go get cleaned up and then you can get some rest, Ill take the first shift."

They drove down the pacific coast highway down towards San Diego, the evening quickly passing and Sawyer thought they should stop for some food. Kate had to be starving. But when he looked back at her she had her hand clasped over her mouth, trying to hide her sobs from him. It was too much; it was just too much for him to bear. Seeing a rest stop coming up ahead he pulled over and put his arm out.

"Hey Freckles" He replied gently trying to offer her comfort, and he heard an involuntary sob come out. Sawyer knew this had to be about the him Locke was referring to. Sawyer didnt know who he was but he knew that it had to be someone close to Kate.

Sawyer felt her resist his embrace, but he didnt care, pulling her closer he put his hand through her hair and just held her. He waited till her breathing steadied, just holding her like this, when she was so broken up was one of the most intimate things hed ever done. Her shields were completely down and she was vulnerable, and it scared Sawyer a little, but also made him want to reach out to protect her, and he kissed her forehead gently, and waited a few more moments asking her tenderly his voice cracked a little

"You wanna talk about it?"

For a long minute Sawyer looked down at the top of Kates brown head as her face pressed into his chest. He thought he felt a blink as his fingers caressed the back of her neck and Kate finally answered truthfully

"No."

Her own voice shaky she didnt trust it. And Sawyer swallowed trying to just be there for her, be compassionate and considerate, and he nodded finally and replied

"Thats okay Freckles, you dont have" But Kate spoke up interrupting him, her voice calm now, she explained

"The man he killed was my father, well my step father."

Sawyers brows creased in pain, feeling it resonate from her, and Kate continued playing with the neck line of his shirt, and she started to relive it all painfully, replying

"My mother killed my father, my real biological father, when she found out he had tried to sexually assault me, (Kate explained like it was the most normal thing in the world, but Sawyer tensed up in anger when he heard about Kates sexually abusive father.) Sheshe wasnt mad at him for touching me thoughShe was mad at me for luring him away from herSososhe murdered him and framed me for it to get back at me"

"Kate." Sawyer didnt want her to relive all this.

Kate shook her head, knowing she had to get this out, and her voice began to quiver as she pressed herself harder to Sawyer holding him like a security blanket, Kate replied"I didnt let him touch mebut he tried."

"Its okay sugar, he aint ever gonna touch you again. Neither is your ma" Not if Sawyer had anything to do with it. And Kate shook her head, knowing shed never be totally free, but she appreciated his protectiveness, finding it endearing, and Kate finally concluded getting to the point

"So Locke found me when they had arrested me and arranged to have my trial arraigned on one condition, I had to work for him."

Her eyes flashed to his, but quickly looked down again, feeling numb, and she finally explained

"A year or so later I had second thoughts about working for the agency, and thats when Locke blackmailed me, said if I left, hed kill my stepfather, the one man who ever truly loved me."

Her eyes teared up again and she bled more tears into Sawyers shirt concluding

"So I killed the only man who had found some way to love me. Im a black widow, Locke should have killed me today, he would have been doing the world a favor!"

Sawyer couldnt take any more of this. It was torturing watching Kate relive this, and blame herself for the actions of a mad man, and he pulled her chin up to look at him finally replying when her green cloudy eyes met his

"Now you listen to me, if you think for one second this is your fault Freckles, think again. Its that cold blooded killer Locke, and if I had known what hed done to you back there, I would have killed him."

Sawyers nostrils flared in anger, thinking he would tear him apart if he ever saw that man again. Trying to keep his rage contained, he took a few deep breaths, and he added

"And secondly, if you think your step father is the only man who ever loved you, think again Freckles."

Kate looked back up at Sawyer in that moment, and her eyes searched his for the truth and she saw the love emanating from him.

From one tortured soul to another, Sawyer thought, thinking no ones history would ever be as fucked up as his, but Kate proved him wrong. They were two peas from the same pod. And he brought his hand up to smooth out her hair. Kate smiling on the verge of tears now, thankful for his love.

He didnt want it to come out that way, just tossed out there with no where to run or hide, but it was his heart speaking. And for once he had put himself out there completely vulnerable, just like Kate had been a few minutes earlier. For a moment, in the middle of her silence, Sawyer panicked, thinking hed surely changed things between them, maybe for the worse.

"Look Kate...I.."

But Kate didnt let him finish, closing the distance between them, her lips pressed against his once more, gentle at first, and then her desire grew.

It was similar to the longing passionate kiss before, but this one was more careful. His tongue danced with hers like a slow waltz, exploring new revelations, gliding against her palette, his hands holding her sides gently as she turned to face him, taking the kiss deeper. And then Kate was licking him back. They kissed until their chests filled with air, needing to breathe, but barely getting through it before letting out an exhale in unison and then they were back at it. Their bodies telling them each what they wanted, what they craved and desired. This time, hands roamed under their tattered prison garbs. Kate let out a gasp, as Sawyer caught her upper lip in his kiss.

She briefly pulled away and met his gaze with bedroom eyes and replied softly...

"Make love to me James."

After everything she told him, Sawyer wasnt sure if it was the right thing, if Kate needed more time to think about sex, since it was such a sensitive topic for her, and he asked her breathlessly under the kiss, taking all he could get, he asked her

"You sure?"

She just wanted to get lost in his arms, in his kiss, in him. He was the only person who could take her away from all of it and she kissed a line down his chest, his perfectly cut chest, with bronzed skin adorned with a dusting of fine dark blonde hairs, until she got to his navel. And Kate asked him again begging...

"Yes, make love to me please...."

Sawyer couldnt take the build up anymore, her hand already on his crotch she had unzipped his pants an Sawyer tore at her pants, pulling her up into his lap. She paused for a moment, looking down at him. His beautiful body waiting to connect with hers. Even aside from the bandages on his arm and bruises on his face, he was still beautiful to her.

Her longing look told Sawyer everything he needed to know, not wasting anymore time discarding more clothing, he pulled his pants down over his hips, his hard dick springing out, and then he tore at her underwear. Kate gasped smiling from the freeing feeling no panties gave her, smiling at Sawyers trademark move. The anticipation alone made her a little wet as she waited for that inevitable moment. Needing to feel him move inside her. To take her away from the dark realities of her life.

Sawyer was so hard it hurt, and he adjusted Kates position over him as her sensitive folds parted for him, like the red sea, they parted long and wide for his longing hard desire. Kate let out a cry of pleasure when she felt his thickness slide inside her womb.

"Oh James..." She moaned adjusting to his size. It had been a few days since their first night together. But she felt like she had waited a lifetime for this. Rising and falling over him she moved with him, as his massive hands gripped her ass and guided her over his hardness.

Sawyer finally pulled at her shirt, needing to see all of her exposed, her perfect flat tummy and rosy pink nipples bouncing in front of him. He craved it, needing to see all of her to feel all of her, and he raised her shirt above her head, long brown hair cascading back down around her shoulders, Sawyer thought Kate looked like an angel. She was so beautiful, and she was all his right now. Surrendering herself to him, she clung to his shoulders as they climbed Mount Everest together.

"Fuck Kate."

Sawyer groaned feeling his peak approach. He used his good hand to hold her soft breast licking the salty flesh, he felt the heat from her skin sizzle with his scorching tongue, and he knew it was only a few moments away. Kate felt her climax build unable to hold it off any longer as Sawyer continued to move inside her, she let out a whimper, and then came...

"UhahHHhhhhhhhh!"

Sawyer was a goner after that, feeling the threshold give way under him, he bit down on her flesh needing hold onto something, as his dick poured into her like a knocked over fire hydrant, and Kate cried out again in pleasure.

He groaned as his good hand held her breast, thumb pressing into her flesh, while the injured arm, clenched her straddled thighs. And he felt like he could pass out from this erotic feeling, this feeling she gave him, that made Sawyer feel like his body had been possessed and charged up by electricity. It was a good kind of electricity though. Fuck, it felt good. He looked down where they connected, an inch of his pink dick visible to the naked eye, while the rest of their skin glistened in love. Kate looked down too, feeling his cock still inside her and she knew when she looked up into Sawyers eyes, she knew she was home.

Sawyer met her gaze and leaned in to kiss her mouth, but Kate held him back for a moment, her hand on his chest, she blinked once, and finally confessed...

"I love you too."

His gaze softened, enamored by this woman, this amazing woman sitting before him, and Sawyer sealed her confession with a kiss. It was the only answer she needed to hear.

lisagwilkins · Site Administrator

Jaci, I'm sorry I didn't put a review up for you before, we were havin' site trouble that night if I'm not mistaken.

I really really like this story and I can't wait to see what happens in the next one!

Starlight · Charlie's Angel

Woah hon! Another awesome chapter! Keep up the good work. :D

sawyersmine · Hollaback girl

Thank you again ladies for the wonderful reviews. This is the last chapter, woohoo! So hope you like. Thanks again!

Chapter 6

San Diego, CA

For the first time since that night, Sawyer woke up with Kate in his arms. He was beyond thrilled about that little fact, his lips curving up into a smirk as he watched her sleeping so peacefully, her cheek pressed to his chest. Both of their bodies naked and limbs lazily splayed across one another as they recovered in sleep from the long night of lovemaking. Sawyer knew this was real. It was nothing like Emily, this was 100% real. He loved Kate. He had said so last night, and after he made love to her, she confessed her love back to him. It was unbelievably perfect, despite the predicament they were in.

They were on the run, checking into a hotel cheekily Sawyer put their names under Mr. and Mrs. Smith; he had taken the money he withdrew out of the atm, technically stealing it out of the atm since it wasnt withdrawn from any bank account, but by using the machines codes to pay for their room. Emergency Operating Procedure he learned working for the CIA. And then he got some take out Chinese, and after much coaxing for Kate to eat; she finally surrendered to him and took some Moo Shoo pork and rice. He let her have the shower first and then he took his and they put on their new clean clothes. The prison garb looked just a tad bit suspicious and of course Sawyer bought new ammo for the gun he lifted off Agent Sheppard. He was no idiot. Sawyer had agreed with Kate to stay here over night and lay low for a few days and then they would go back to the CIA to tell Director Linus that they both quit. Sawyer felt a weight lift off his shoulder at the notion of leaving the CIA finally. He knew he had lived a shady and sordid past, but surely he had paid for his sins by now. He had gotten them a lot of information on the agency and even some passwords to get into their internal data network. The CIA had them in the bank so they were good.

Sawyer felt Kate stir on his chest and he moved his hand to run along her back, finally ending in her long brown hair. Kate smiled sleepily and looked back up at Sawyer and Sawyer replied with a dimpled smile, delighted to see her waking face

"Mornin Freckles." Kate smiled and then blushed as she pulled herself up to her elbow, realizing she was butt naked underneath those sheets, her naked body pressed against his for warmth it was a very comforting feeling and she replied licking her lips

"Morning." She smiled a little nervous, almost bashful to wake in this intimate position and Kate put her hand on Sawyers chest and looked up into his eyes. And she asked him still tired

"So what time is it?"

Sawyer smirked and looked back at the alarm and replied

"11:58still morning." He smirked back at her and she smiled leaning up to kiss him Sawyer replied in-between kisses"Now thats what I call a proper goodmornin."

Kate smiled as his lips took hers warmly enveloping her as she found her nook in his arms and she replied

"Well I aim to please"

Sawyer put his hand up to caress her jaw as they kissed, tongues tangoing and then Sawyer flipped Kate onto her back and he replied with a wicked smirk

"So do I baby. So do I"

He smiled kissing her and then Sawyer proclaimed

"How about we make the best out of the rest of this morning and indulge ourselves in whats left of this honeymoon suite?"

Kate smiled, kissed him back, and wrapped her thighs around his hips, offering her answer.

About an hour later, they finally peeled their bodies away from one another and Sawyer suggested they get some breakfast at a near bye diner.

As the waitress brought over their waffles and eggs, Sawyer turned to Kate and asked her with a smirk

"So?"

"So what?" Kate asked him with a coy glint in her eyes wondering what he was thinking.

Sawyer decided to take his chance, feeling the waters, he was curious to know where this was headed, if she foresaw a future with him after all of this and he finally asked her after licking his lips in thought, his gaze lifted to meet hers

"If you could do anything with your life, anything at all, what would it be Freckles?"

Kate looked back at Sawyer surprised he would ask that question firstly, it was the last thing she expected, but he was full of surprises. Thinking about it for a moment she finally came back with a child like smile imagining the vast possibilities, thanks to Sawyer she could dare to dream now. She took a thoughtful sip of her orange juice and set it down, looking back at him with a smirk of her own, Kate finally replied

"Well I always fantasized about being a teacher, since I was a little girlSo I guess, if I got to start over, thats what Id want to doMaybe find a little house in the countryMaybe find someone to share it with"

Sawyer swallowed hard feeling butterflies all of the sudden when her gaze locked with his after she uttered the word someone. It was like a little trinket of hope, meant just for him, and he couldnt remember the last time he felt that way, so hopeful, so nervous about everything. Then his smile softened endearingly as he thought about the simplicity of her wish, and the selflessness, thinking she was the sweetest person he ever knew.

"What?" Kate asked him feeling embarrassed now. He was staring at her oddly and she thought she could take the moment to turn the tables back on him and Kate asked Sawyer

"What about you James? What would you do with your life if you were free?"

He didnt expect her to turn the question back on him, equally unprepared for an answer. He wasnt sure someone like him could ever be totally free. Sawyer had never dared to hope before, never dream about the possibilities. It was always the agency or die. But, Kate gave him that hope and he paused for a minute, his serious eyes searching hers, he finally replied

"Id try to be a better person."

Kates face melted when she heard Sawyers response, taking his hand from across the table, she hated that he didnt see himself as good, he was CIA for gods sakes, there was nothing more noble than that and he gave her a chance to prove herself. And she declared squeezing his hand

"You are a good person James"

Sawyer looked back at Kate feeling the discomfort all of the sudden, of keeping something important from her, he felt the need now to tell her why he wasnt a good person.

"Kate. I"

"Well, well, wellwe were about to put an MIA alert on you James!" Sawyer recognized the voice instantly and he looked up seeing the familiar set of bug eyes.

Kates eyes widened in surprise as well and she exclaimed

"Director Linus!"

"Yes, you sound surprised to see me, you two werent planning on leaving without saying goodbye were you?"

Sawyer shook his head and put his hand out to stop him from his assumptions when Linus slid into the booth beside Sawyer he took off his coat and hung it on the hook making himself comfortable. However, Sawyer and Kate couldnt have looked more uncomfortable and once the waitress took his order, Sawyer began

"Its not what it looks like, we were planning on comin to see you today, we just had to lay low"

Linus arched his brow and looked back from Sawyer to Kate as he took a sip of his coffee and replied

"You thought you were better off on your own than in an undisclosed location in a CIA guarded safe house?"

Linus chuckled and he shook his head, replying,"I guess you needed more persuading than I thought you did."

Kate looked back at Director Linus, confused by his words. Sawyer wanting to get out of this line of thought quickly replied explaining

"They were after us, we narrowly escaped out of Lockes custody after being locked up for 48 hours, didnt want to risk them following us, plus we needed a day or two to not deal with interrogations and superiority bull shit."

Sawyer glared back at Ben, knowing he knew what he meant and Ben smiled smugly taking another sip of his coffee.

"Fair enough." He finally agreed. And then stated his terms.

"Ill assume that you feel safe enough now to come back with me, and then we can get started on debriefing and where to put you on your next assignment"

Sawyer looked back at Kate uncomfortably, knowing they talked about quitting the CIA together, but he thought this might be harder than he had originally envisioned. Taking a long swig of his own coffee, Sawyer finally proclaimed

"Well go back with you and give our statements, but after that, we want out." Sawyer figured this would go much better for them if he just yanked the band-aid off quickly and he looked back at Director Linus meeting his gaze. Linus stopped sipping his coffee, setting it down calmly, he smiled briefly and finally replied

"You actually think Im going to let both of you walk free on the street, like Jane and John Doe, with al the information you have?"

Kates heart sunk feeling hopeless all of the sudden.

He scoffed, followed by a short chuckle and Linus proclaimed "James, dont be an idiot, the terms of your probation, and Agent Austen's probation were that you"

Kate looked back at Director Linus confused now wondering how Sawyer ever got probation and she cut in"Wait."

Ben looked back at Kate questioningly and she asked him looking at Sawyer

"How did he get probation?"

The sides of Bens mouth actually curved up into a wicked smile when he realized he had gotten in the middle of something and he looked back at James and asked him

"You didnt tell her did you?"

Sawyer looked down at the table ashamed and then back at Kate sadly, not wanting it to come out like this.

"Tell me what?" Kate asked, all the sudden feeling alarmed, and she looked back at Sawyer questioningly. But all the sudden Sawyer couldnt find his tongue. All that talk about being a good person and working for the good guys, made him feel like a huge liar now. And he sighed and shook his head, eyes closed in pain.

But Ben, didnt give him the chance to gather his strength, finally explaining

"You see, Agent Sawyer here was recruited just like you were. He works for an agency called SD15. Director Locke knows his old director, Charles Widmore well. Infact they are partners. They had both joined forces to take me down. The only reason Director Locke allowed James into your little agency was because he owed Widmore a favor. You see, the numbers youve been giving me, are coordinates."

Kate looked back at Director Linus with jaw slacked. She didnt know what to believe anymore. Sawyer/James was one of the bad guys, blackmailed into being good? He lied to her? She almost died for him? Kate was so confused and she looked back at Sawyer with a newfound contempt.

Linus continued with his story as Sawyer half listened and kept glancing back at Kate, knowing hed never get himself out of this one.

"When the coordinates line up, it will construct a map, to one of the most valuable and dangerous places on earth."

Sawyer looked back at Linus confused and he shook his head deciding to cut himself off now or he could talk till dawn on the subject and Linus finally replied finishing his coffee

"So you see, you both know far too much, you work for me now, and I can not afford to have agents, or ex agents with this kind of information running around on the streets. Not alive anyway."

He swallowed looking back at Kate with a newfound fear. The Director had made his claims pretty clear.

He looked back at Kate trying to signal her with his eyes. Back when they were on assignment in Las Vegas they used body language to speak and Sawyer scratched his nose, letting her know to wait for the right moment. And he looked back at Linus finally answering him

"Well then Bugsy, guess we dont got much of a choice then, aint that right Kate?"

Kate looked back at Sawyer still pissed that he could lie to her like that, what else was a lie? Everything that happened last night? Everything he ever said? But she didnt have time to hate him right now, for once both of them in the same basket, Kate nodded and swallowed looking back at director Linus hesitantly she finally replied taking another sip of her orange juice, even though it made her feel sick, her stomach rolling pits deep down inside, answering

"Yeah, well go back with you."

Sawyers eyes kept darting towards the entrance and Kate met his gaze questioningly as the waitress came over and asked if they needed anything else.

"That will be all." Ben answered with a polite smile offering to pay for their breakfasts he put some money on the table and he looked back from Sawyer to Kate remarking as he stood up and put his coat on

"Well lets go then, shall we?"

Sawyer nodded and stood up next to him looking back at Kate like she had horns coming out of her head, he jerked his neck back towards the restroom in one final attempt to give her the message. Finally Kate raised her brows, clearing her throat she replied

"I just have to use the ladies room first, sorry that orange juice went right through me."

Linus narrowed his eyes and he looked back at Sawyer questioningly to make sure he didnt have anything hidden up those sleeves, or mischief in his eyes. Ben was fully aware of Sawyers criminal past, he was a dangerous man and very cunning and he replied

"Very well, just dont try anything stupid, we will be right out here waiting Kate."

Kate nodded, one last glance to Sawyer who creased his brows in regret for pulling Kate into this and she moved past them with her head down into the ladies room.

Once inside she looked at her face in the mirror. Somehow Kate felt like she was looking back at a different woman. This wasnt the same naive doe eyed girl, Locke brought into his agency 3 years ago. She had aged a little, the lines in her face a little more apparent. Kate longed to be free. Just this last day and a half with Sawyer she had been happy. But then she looked back at herself sadly thinking it was all a lie.

Kate looked over at a closed off window in the womens bathroom. If she broke it and left quietly, shed have a good 15-minute head start on them. She could run, and live under a new identity. But then there was this looming feeling of guilt. Could she leave Sawyer behind? Kate didnt think she should care, but something in her heart told her she had to do it. Closing her eyes she bent down and splashed some cold water on her face. Needing all the relief she could get at the moment.

And then she took a couple paper towels. Then Kate took off her coat and lifted the paper towel holder off the wall. Holding her coat up to the window she smashed the holder against the glass and it shattered into a million pieces. With the padding of Kates coat, it muffled the break and she carefully reached out knocking out the jagged edges. Kate looked back at the door, praying someone wouldnt come in, or that Ben wouldnt hear her. Finally clearing her way, she pulled herself up on the nearby sink and slipped out.

"Ahhhh" Kate let out a cry as she fell catching some skin on the glass, she cut her arm. But Kate didnt have time to tend to her injury. Going back out to the parking lot, she got the car and brought it around to the front by the entrance and she waited for Sawyer, hoping to god that he would be able to get out of there alive. She revved up the engine a couple times warming up the car and signaling Sawyer that she had the car without drawing too much attention, instead of honking the horn.

Sawyer saw the familiar blue hood fill up the window and he knew Kate had made it out. Looking back at Ben he shook his head playing coy Sawyer asked him kidding

"Jesus, what did she do, fall in or something?"

He sighed and folded his arms. And then Ben put his ear up to the door to listen for movement inside and he heard none. He looked back at Sawyer with narrowed eyes, suspicious, Sawyer waited for the moment, when Ben finally opened the door. That was his one chance.

"What on Ea????" Ben began to remark as he pushed the door open and thats when Sawyer reached around him flipping off the lights, Sawyer shoved him in the room and jammed the door shut with a nearby mop.

The restaurant manager looked back at Sawyer questioningly and Sawyer replied

"Better call the cops, pervert vandalized the womans room, who knows where hes headed next!"

And before the manager could reply, Sawyer brushed past him out to the car. Slamming the door Sawyer got inside and he exclaimed to Kate

"Lets go!"

He looked back at Kate wondering what the hold up was, why she wasnt gunning the engine, and then a familiar voice broke his concentration from behind.

"Now you werent thinking of leaving without me were you James?" Sawyer saw Linus sitting in the back seat with a gun to Kates head. And she looked terrified. Sawyer had never hated anyone with such contempt before. He narrowed his eyes looking back at Ben Sawyer proclaimed angrily

"Son of a bitch!"

Ben chuckled admiring his little power play. And he finally replied

"Aw, upset I caught on to your little plan before you could get away James? Youll never get away from us, were always watching, in every country, state, and city in the world, we can find you."

Sawyer looked back at him and Ben spoke to Kate

"Now Katherine, you will drive us to CIA headquarters right now or I shall shoot James here first and then you. (He paused for a moment and then added) I know he lied to you, but youll forgive him, you are two in the same. I just happened to reap the benefits of finding you first."

Sawyer looked back at Linus thinking it was odd that he kept referring to himself as first person in all of this. Like it was for him. And Kate pulled the car out of park and turned onto the main street. Replying sarcastically under her breath

"Well lucky you."

Ben smirked again and he held a gun to Kates head, and Sawyer turned around and asked him curiously

"So tell me Director Linus, this whole, holdin up agents and hijacking their cars, CIA protocol? They teach you that at Langley?"

Ben just smiled coyly back at Sawyer and he shook his head figuring the only way to confirm his suspicions for sure was to ask. Sawyer was practically a human lie detector and finally questioned him

"Your not really with the CIA are you Linus?"

Ben smiled even wider and smirked raising his brows he finally replied

"Im impressed James, looks like I made the right choice keeping you two alive."

"You see I set it all up, your wife James, she was one of my agents, and your partner Jack, Kate, I set him up to miss that target so you two would form the perfect spy team, my own personal double agents."

Sawyers nostrils flared as Ben continued to explain

"The CIA was the best cover I could come up with so your bosses wouldnt know who they were dealing with should you be interrogated. So I had my agency basically designed to be a carbon of the real CIA offices"

Sawyer took Kates hand in his and her eyes flinched back at his. He knew the only way theyd get out of this alive was to risk their lives. He knew Kate knew what she had to do, and Sawyer kept him talking

"So how do you know Widmore and Locke then?"

Ben smiled again thinking fondly of his memories and he replied

"We were all part of the Alliance, but then Widmore went and started bragging about finding some precious metal in the south pacific. It belonged to this island with extraordinary physical properties, beyond scientific reason. And then the treasure hunt began."

Kates foot began to speed on the gas as they turned onto the freeway. A large bridge coming up, the traffic was thin today, and Kate knew what she had to do. Buckling her seatbelt quietly, Sawyer did the same. Ben was too preoccupied with his treasure he kept talking about it.

"So then Locke reported a couple weeks later that he had found the coordinates to this island, and ever since the metal test, we realized it was possible to get there, but you couldnt find this island like any other."

"You dont say?" Sawyer asked absently his eyes concentrating on the horizon ahead as Kate sped up gaining momentum.

"Yes its really an amazing place, and he first one to find it, will reap all the rewards of its abundant treasuresGreater than any other treasure humankind has foundSay why are we going so fast?"

Ben asked noticing now that Kate was beginning to weave out of the lane, and Sawyer grabbed her hand tighter squeezing it

"Oh no reason, just taking out some trash as all." Sawyer replied smirking back at Linus and he hung onto the edge of his seat demanding fearfully

"Slow this car down right now Kate or Ill put a bullet in the back of your head, I mean it!"

But as he said it, Kate hit the divider and it knocked the gun out of Bens hand. As he struggled to quickly find it on the backseat floor, Kate sped up and broke the bridge barricade, crashing threw the divider, they were freefalling 300 feet to the ocean floor below them. Sawyer never let go of her hand and as they fell they both began unrolling their windows.

The crash was hard, but thankfully their seat belts kept them in place and as soon as the car leveled below the surface, Sawyer unbuckled his seat belt and helped Kate out of her window. And then he followed. They swam up to the surface gasping for air and Sawyer closed his eyes.

"Maybe that will finally shut him up." Sawyer replied and then they swam over to the riverbanks. They got to a huge boulder and sprawled out on the rocks tiredly gasping for air. Sawyer waited a moment, watching where the car went down as the air bubbles rose, but there was no sign of him, and he replied truthfully

"We gotta get out of here pretty quickly, I have a feeling he wasnt making up the watchin us part."

Kate nodded and stood up slowly and Sawyer asked her after a few intakes

"You okay Freckles?"

She smiled faintly and nodded back at him, terrified for her life a few moments ago Kate didnt know what side was up and what was down at the moment, leery about trusting Sawyer again or maybe she was scared of trusting herself, they walked up to the top of the bridge and Sawyer held out his hand for Kate to take.

She could have said no in that moment, or parted ways by crossing the street. It would have been so easy. But somehow, Kate knew that their paths had crossed for a reason, something bigger than just coincidence, and they were meant to take this journey together perhaps as kindred souls, perhaps as more than that. Everything would change now. It wasnt about good and bad or black and white. They were both two scarred people with heartache and pain. But Kate knew somehow that James would be there for her no matter what. And she would be there for him. This was uncharted territory for her, something new and scary for Kate and her heart. And she took a deep breath inhaling finally concluding

"Yes James, Ill be fine now."

And she would. Kate took his hand as he pulled her up onto the sidewalk with him. Whether the decision was verbally agreed upon or argued about later until they were blue in the face, she knew that they would do it together.

The End.

-- Edited by sawyersmine at 04:02, 2008-12-09

Starlight · Charlie's Angel

Wow! What an ending! Great job Jaci! I loved all the action and intrigue! Wonderful story!! :D

lisagwilkins · Site Administrator

Oh wow!! Jaci, that was so good!!!

I loved it!!

That was such a good story...and I'm so sad it's over!! I really enjoyed it!!