Kate climbed up onto the helicopter as the mortar shells and the bullets fired off above her head. "JAMES!!James, come on!!"She called.
Sawyer ran toward the chopper with Aaron in his arms.He practically threw him into Kates arms.His body jerked a little and he winced in pain as one of the bullets cut into his shoulder blade.
Sayid looked back at James as he heard him calling to him. "Get this god damn thing outta here!!"Sawyer called.
"Im not leavin' without you!!"Kate yelled as she held Aaron against her."James please!!"The bullets flew and survivors from Oceanic 815 dropped like flies over and over again.The tree line exploded in gun fire and screams could be heard over and over again.
Jack's lifeless body lay on the ground draped over Juliet's.Hed been shot in the back as he tried to cover Juliet.She'd taken a round in her neck which severed her jugular and she had bled to death in Jack's arms.
Sayid and Desmond had done everything they could to get everyone off safely but so many had died at the hands of these horrid people.Even Ben's body lay in a crumpled heap on the floor of the clearing.
"Sayid, its bad out here!Take her outta here!Take Kate and Aaron and get em the fuck outta here!!"Sawyer called.Sayid put the headphones on his head and motioned to the man who had become his closest friend.Sawyer shot into the trees over and over again.But it was too late.
"I love you James!!"Kate called.She placed her hand on her tummy.
"Then go, save yourself, Aaron and our baby and go!!We owe that much to Claire!"He called.The helicopter lifted off. "Ill find you Kate!I swear Ill find you!"
Just then a shot hit him in the chest and Sawyer fell to the ground. "JAMES!!God dammit!!!JAMES!!!"Kate cried and tried to get out of the helicopter but Desmond reached around her and held her down.
"You cannot save him Kate.He would want you to stay alive."Sayid yelled as he flew toward the freighter.
"JAMES!!!"She screamed and cried and held on to Aaron as the chopper flew away. "JAMES!!"
Kate snapped herself awake as the morning sun filtered through the curtains of her bedroom.Shed slept late.It was well after 10 when she finally threw her legs over the side of the bed and got up.She shook herself awake as the memory played over and over again in her mind.
Her housekeeper and her nanny were already up and moving around the house when she made it downstairs in her robe and socks.Aaron came bounding toward the stairs. "Mommy, brek-us!"
"Yes, baby, I know.Come on, lets go have some breakfast."She placed him in the booster seat.
"Good morning Angela."Kate said.
"Morning Missy Kate."Angela said.
"Can I have Aarons breakfast please?"Kate asked.She took the plastic plate and put it in front of Aaron. "Now don't spill it sweetie."
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"How is he?"Jin asked in his broken, but much better, English.
"He's still out."Sun said.She blotted Sawyers head with the soft cloth.She kept a close watch and since Jack was gone, shed moved Sawyer into their house into the other bedroom.He was occasionally awake but mostly he was still getting over the gun shot wound that had ripped his chest apart.Even though Bernard was a dentist, he had done a pretty fair job of getting the bullet out, and Sun knew enough to put Sawyer on antibiotics afterward.
"Is he still calling for her?"Jin asked.
"Yes, when hes really out of it, he reaches for her.I think he thinks I'm her."Sun said.
Jin brushed her hair out of her face. "Its sad.I thought we lost him you know."
"Other than you, I have never seen a man love a woman as much as he loves her."Sun said. "Sometimes I feel like she never deserved him.Sometimes I wanted to tell her she was throwing him away, and he didnt deserve the way she treated him, but it wasn't my place."
"I know."Jin said. "This reminds me of the raft.All he could think about was getting back to her.And now he almost died again."
She leaned over and kissed his lips softly. "You are a romantic, you know that?"
"Romance is not good enough for you, my love."Jin said softly. "It doesnt equal how much I love you."
Sawyer moaned and turned his head a little in the bed. "Kate."He whispered."Kate."
"See I told you." Sun said.
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"Good morning."The back door opened and Mary, Kates next door neighbor walked in.
"Hey Mary."Kate answered. "You want some coffee?"
"Oh of course."Mary said as she sat down at the kitchen table.Kate poured her a cup and handed it to her.She sat down across from her.
"Whats wrong with you?You look awful honey.Are you sick?"Mary asked.
"Uhm, no, uh, I'm...I'm fine."Kate said, looking down at her cup.
"Uh huh, why dont you lie to me again."Mary said.Kate looked up at her.Mary knew that look. "You had that dream again didnt you?"
"Yea.And last night when I came home, the shirt he used to wear all the time, the khaki green one that I liked so much that I brought back from the island, well it was laid out on the bed and the jeans of his with the hold in the knee were there too.Its like they were laid there but he wasn't in them."Kate said.
"Kate honey, you had to be dreaming.How could that happen?"Mary asked.Mary was a lawyer, she was a realist and didnt believe in anything she couldnt put her hands on.
"I dont know, maybe I laid them out and didn't realize it.I've been missing him so much."Kate said.
Mary put her hand on Kates. "Honey, James is dead.You saw him shot dead."She said.
"What if he's not Mary.What if he's tryin' to reach me?"Kate said.She placed her hand on her tummy again. "This little girl is about to be born and she will never ever know her daddy.Maybe he isn't dead.Maybe hess trying to find me.He swore hed find me."
Kate shifted in her seat. "We've been back 6 months and I don't think I can make 6 more minutes without him."
A tear rolled down Marys face. "Kate that's not possible.You know that."
"I know."Kate sighed hard. "I just love him so much and I'll never get to tell him."
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Bernard came in to check on Sawyers wound. "Hi Sun."He said, as she tried to feed Sawyer some fruit. "How is he?"
"He's been like this for days."She said. "It's like he doesn't want to come out of it."
"Maybe he doesn't."Bernard said.
Sun sighed hard. "That's what Im afraid of."
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"I don't know why you think you wanna leave." James said as he sat down on the bed. "I mean we've got everything we need here. We can stay here, just you and me and the baby."
Kate shot him a look. "Okay yea I know, I ain't never been much for babies, but this is different Freckles, this one's ours." He said.
"I can't have a baby on this island." Kate said. "There's no anesthesia, no hospital and Jack's even at the beach."
"First of all, Claire did it so I don't see why you can't." He said. "And second, you got another think comin' honey if you think for one second I'm lettin' Doc Welby down there even get close to deliverin' this baby."
"Oh for crying out loud, James, it's not about sex." She said putting her hands on her hips.
"It sure as hell ain't but I ain't trustin' him with that. We'll leave that up to the blonde bombshell." He said.
Kate stepped up to him and put her arms around his neck. "Look, we've got a little over 7 months before we even have to think about it." She kissed him softly and Sawyer fell deeper into her kiss. "Can't we just enjoy being together."
Sawyer wanted to get everything decided. He didn't want it to be up in the air. It always seemed to be up in the air with him and Kate and, ever since the cages, he was a whole lot more protective of her than he used to be. He kissed her back and then went into the kitchen to make breakfast.
He liked staying in the abandoned barracks. It was like home, or rather the only home he'd ever known and now he had come full circle. He was no longer the outcast. He was a respected member of the community and he was looked at as a leader and one who could be trusted and was above suspicion. And in all honesty, Sawyer revelled in his new found leadership role. Deep down in his psyche, it mattered to him. It mattered tremendously and he didn't want to do anything to lose it.
James' eyes fluttered as the memory took the shape of a dream. They opened slightly but he was still so out of it. He had to find a way to get to Kate, to be with her, to keep them together. And, he had to find a way to reach their child. He searched through his mind trying to find a way to get to her, to their family. But right now it was no use, he was still lost in the maze of darkness that surrounded his recovery from the most recent gunshot wound, he'd received.
Sun brought some juice and some fruit to him to try to feed him some of it. She fed him like a baby and let him sip some of the juice. "Sawyer, Sawyer can you hear me?" Sun asked him, but no response came.
Sun brushed his hair of his face and laid her palm against his cheek. "Come out of it Sawyer. Come back to us, we all need you. We love you." She whispered.
She flattened her palm on his chest to feel his heart beating. "She loves you Sawyer. Kate's waiting for you. You have to come out of this."
But he could not. He was still in that dark place and nothing seemed to help him come out of it. "I love her." He whispered softly.
"I know you do." Sun whispered softly. "Come on Sawyer, wake up."
Sawyer turned his head away from her as he fell into darkness again.
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It was so strange how time had absolutely flown since she had gotten back to L.A. it seemed like just a few days ago that they'd all said their goodbyes and walked away back into the real world and back into their lives.
Kate would hear from Sayid once in a while but not often. She wished she could, probably more than she should. It was not so much him as it was the connection he had with James. The two men had gone from inherently suspicious of each other and barely able to stand the sight of one another to being so close they could almost read each other's thoughts.
And Sayid had been right when he had told Kate that she couldn't save James, but it killed her that he had been left behind. She felt like she'd let him down, and in her mind she did. She knew she was his whole world, and she knew that he would put his life down for her, he'd already done that. But the worst part was she now believed she had never treated him the way she should have, and looking back over their time on the island, she realized she really didn't.
And now he was dead and it was too late, too late to tell him how she felt and too late to make things right.
It was late at night and Kate was laying in bed trying to go to sleep. Aaron was asleep and the nanny and the housekeeper had turned in for the night too. She tossed and turned over and over again and tried to go to sleep. Kate heard a sound and turned over.
On the other side of the room, a book that had been on the table by the chair and floor lamp had landed squarely on the floor. Kate got up out of bed and went to the book and stooped down to pick it up. She looked at the title of it and creased her brow, not even knowing she had this one. "The Third Policeman" wasn't something she'd even want to read but for some reason it was now on the floor. Then it hit her. When she has asked him for a gun so that she and Claire and Rousseau could go search the medical station, that was the book he was reading. "Jesus." She whispered.
Kate stood up and her face went white. There he was. James was standing in the window reaching for her. He was white, almost milky and didn't speak to her. He was there for just a split second but he was there. He. was. there.
Kate ran to the phone and dialed the number. "Mary? Mary help me." She said.
"What? What happened?" Mary asked. "Never mind I'll be right there." Mary ran down the stairs and across the street. She pulled out her key and she through the front door open. She ran up the stairs to Kate's room. Kate was still white and staring at the window.
"Katie? What happened honey." She asked. Kate turned to look at her.
"He was here." She whispered.
"What?" Mary asked.
"He. was. here." Kate said. "He's alive and I saw him. He came for me."
"Honey." Mary said putting her hands on Kate's shoulders. "That's not possible Kate. "You know that. You were dreaming honey. It was a dream."
Kate wriggled out of Mary's grasp. "No it wasn't. He was here and he wants me to go to him."
"Okay. Okay let's say he was. Why would he want you to go back?" Mary asked.
Kate turned to her and her mouth fell open. "So we can be together. He's alive and he needs me." Kate said.
"Kate, I'm a lawyer, nothing is real without evidence. Can you prove that he was here? Fingerprints, footprints, anything?" Mary asked.
"Of course not!" Kate said.
"And why not?" Mary asked.
"Because I'm not there to take care of him. I left him to die!!" She cried and rocked herself as Mary tried to comfort her. Mary put Kate back into bed and let her rest. She sat in the chair and kept watch on Kate for a while. Maybe he was here, Mary thought. Who knows.
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"Unh, oh yea." Sawyer grunted as his cok slammed into Kate harder than he did before. "Take it, take it Freckles."
She loved it when he talked to her this way, when fucked her this way. It wasn't soft and sweet and tender. It was pure and needful and craving. He could do it soft and spend hours in with her nestled in his arms later, but right now, they both had a need and that needed to be filled and they filled it together.
"Make me come, James. Oh fuck, make me come." Kate panted as she arched her hips up to meet his hard thrusts. She squeezed her core down on his cock and kept him inside her. She lifted herself and wrapped her arms around his shoulders. She dug her nails into his shoulders as she suspended herself from his strong body. She locked her legs tight around his back as the muscles in his arms and shoulders rippled and flexed.
He kissed her harder, letting his tongue move with hers. She tasted so good, so female, so his.
Sawyer flipped over on his back and let her control him. He was never the one to let a woman make love to him. In all honesty he'd never made love at all until Kate. Even when he was with Cassidy, as much as she mattered to him, and as much as he cared about her, he still had never made love. Sex was a means to an end for him and he used it, and used it well.
"Kate. Fuck." James whispered as he felt himself come hard and flood inside her.
"Oh yea, baby, come James, come inside me." Kate whispered as her lips and tongue found his chin, neck and his chest. She felt the explosion of feelings inside her and she fell down onto his chest, kissing and nibbling it and feeling whole and complete in his arms.
James took a deep breath. "So what's for dinner Freckles?"
Kate giggled a little bit. "I guess you worked up an appetite."
Sawyer laid there still out of it. Sun and Bernard had changed his bandages several times, and he did appear to be healing pretty well. He hadn't called out for Kate in a couple of days but he did breathe better.
Jin and Sun had watched over him as doting parents would comfort a sick child. Sawyer had risked his life to get Kate on to that helicopter and they admired him for it. He had risked his life for everyone. His family, at least they all thought of themselves as family now. Sun brushed his hair back a little bit and Jin had come in and bathed him with Bernard's help. They had lifted him enough so that they could attend to his needs, knowing that somewhere in that darkness he was stuck in, there was a man who wanted nothing more than to know that the woman he loved was alive and well and had born him a healthy child.
None of them knew if Kate was still alive but they thought she was. They believed she was.
Sun came in and brought some oatmeal that she had fixed for him and tried to get him to eat. She had gotten him to swallow a few spoonfuls of it.
"Sun...Sunshine?" He asked softly. "Is...is that you?"
"Sawyer?" She asked. "Can you hear me?"
"Yea." He whispered. "I...I can...can hear you."
Sun was ecstatic. She reached over and hugged him and kissed his cheek. "Hold on...there...there honey. I'm...I'm spoken for."
"Yes." She grinned. "Yes, you are."
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