Summary: This is a one shot fict about Ana Lucia Cortez and her cop lover, Anthony Kincaid. A follow up to their story in the Lost in LA role play.
Written By: Katie Ford and Sawyersmine
Remember When it Rained
Prologue
I t was over one year ago before great tragedy bestowed Oceanic 815 survivor,Ana Lucia Cortez. Something that changed her life and the course of events that would follow forever. She lost her husband in a shooting. He was murdered by Benjamin Linus and in a sad scene, after professing his love, he perished on that horrific Christmas night. Nine months later, she gave birth to a son. Anthony Kincaid, Jr. Named after his father.
They had met a few years back, both police officers for the LAPD. Anthony . Time and tragedy took them away from one another. Ana's 9 month experience living on an uncharted island in the South Pacific with 42 other castaways, and the tragic death of Tony's fiance Amanda. That day, he thought his life was over. Transferring back to LA, he couldnt bear to be reminded of her. The LAPD was supportive of his transfer and he lost himself in his work. Living for the job.
That was until a week before Christmas, everything changed. That was when Ana Lucia came back into his life. She was mixed up in some case about a murder, involving several of the passengers of Oceanic Flight 815, in which Ana was one of them.
Beleiving that Ana was in some sort of trouble from these monsters, the Dharma Initiative as she called them, he invited her to stay with him in his home temporarily. But from there nature took over. A passion kindled between them. A connection fou nd. And a few days later they were marrie d, and he had never been happier. Wanting to shout from the rooftops how insanely excited he was to have met her.
That was, until the day he died.
The day he died was the day she died. It isn't anymore complicated than that...except her life. She ended up pregnant. And thank God for her grandmother helping her out. Watching the baby as she started a new job at the station. But it wasn't a cop job. She filed paperwork and didn't have to deal with another living soul for eight hours out of the day. Which was how she preffered it. She did her job and left when she was done. Unless her mother came in and tried setting her up on blind dates. She couldnt be too mad at her ma. Her mother got her the job in the first place. But damn it if she was nosy.
There was just no way she could date. Her mind constantly strayed back to Tony. Her husband. The love of her life who was cursed the day he met her. It was her fault he died that Christmas night. She couldnt even remember if it was cold or hot that night...windy or snowy. It was her idea to go to the Christmas party someone threw...she couldnt even remember if it was Libby or Suns house. But he didnt want to go...they had made wild love to each other and she missed the feeling of him inside of her.
The one true joy in her life was her son, Little Tony Jr. Beautiful and chubby and all hers. And Tony would never see him...or meet him...or know him o r be the best father ever.
Her life would never be the same.
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It had been a little over a year, One year 1 month and 16 days to be exact, since that fateful day, and Anthony Kincaid remembered it well. Ana Lucia had been the one great love of his life. Or so he thought. It took him, 3 months to wake from his coma, and another 3 to convice him, about what really happened. They told him what the Oceanic passengers were really involved in. Who they were really mixed up with. Benjamin Linus, his killer. He wanted to go back to Ana as soon as he could get up and walk, but their videos and pictures told him all he needed to know. She had found a replacement for him. A man by the name of Gault. Who he secretly loathed. With his death, she was a widow and their marriage void. When he saw the photo of her walking in the park, a pregnant belly poking out from under her coat, it broke his heart. He yearned to have a child with her so much it hurt. And the fact that the other man had been able to give her what he couldnt. He couldnt handle it anymore. Their relationship was dead. From that day on, Tony agreed to help their cause. And channel his anger towards Benjamin Linus and all of the horrible things he took away from him. Charles Widmore was his employer. Widmore gave him a new identity, even a new house and bank accounts. The o ne condition of Tony's employment was that he couldnt go back to his ol d life to claim anything. He was Chase Brady now. Noth ing to go back for, nothing to love. Atleast he kept telling himself that to get through each day. It was the anger that drove him.
He thought he was finally free and clear of her, until one day his work required him to pay a visit to one of the Oceanic. It wasnt Ana herself, but it was a painful reminder of the old days. At that point, he thought he was past it. Trying to focus on the objective, getting Sun Kwon to break her stance and tell them where the island was, he proposed a way out of her failing marriage. But unfortunately, shortly thereafter, she dissapeared. Along with several other Oceanic passengers.
Widmore didnt seem concerned about it though, so he just kept to his work. Which was research and finding leads on the whereabouts of one Benjamin Linus. The man was practically a ghost, but he was starting to get somewhere when he followed the trail of an apartment residence of one Mickey Mccarthy. Currently known in the black market community as one 'Mickey Blue' eyes, he was found by the police, left in his apartment with throat slit. Tony combed the apartment before the police could close it off as a crime scene and left with some fairly substancial pieces of evidence. The most important being Mickeys cell phone. From there he found out who he had been dealing with and when. Not surprised in the slightest when one of the Oceanic names popped up on his caller id. Tony knew th at group was bad news, his ex included, but for some reason=2 0Widmore wante d continued monitoring on them.
One thing that had confused Tony though, was why Ana hadnt gone with them. When they were together, they had been on the same page, but maybe it was this new lover he had seen her speaking to once or twice through their surveilance. Maybe he didnt want her to go with them. Ironically, Tony couldnt blame the guy, not ever liking how Ana had gotten herself tangled in this. But there were things she hadnt told him about what happened on the island and who she killed. He could only assume that she was a different person from the Ana he knew.
He just wished it would stop hurting at some point. But for some damn reason it never did. But as far as he was concerned, he would stay as far away from her as possible. Never wanting to see her again, he vowed that they would never cross paths. Not if he could help it. LA was a big enough city to get lost in the fray, he thought...
So life returned to normal, or as normal as it could be, he immersed himself in his job and was barely living his life, if it wasnt work, it wasnt worth his attention. His apartment by the beach run down, it looked unlived in, like it had been vacant for weeks. But it was the home he knew. Going into the fridge, Tony winced when he saw that his milk had gone sour and his bread moldy. Sighing in frustration, he closed his eyes knowing he had to go out to the store. All he really wanted to do was veg out infront of the television and pass out on his couch. That was his usual routine.
Groaning as he got up he grabbed the keys to his motorcycle and rode to the nearest grocery store. He didnt know where anything was, trying to find damn Coco puffs, when the woman infront of him dropped something on the ground. It was her list, since it had landed by his foot Tony went to go pick it up and hand it to her, a polite smile on his face.
"Here you must have dropped this." But when he saw who it was his face fell in horror.
Ana.
Turning around she didnt really look at the person. "Thanks." She said in a monotone voice and reached over to grab the list, heart charm dangling from her silver bracelet. She meant to turn around and keep walking but she froze when she finally looked at the person backing up.
Tony.
Tony backed up slowly a few paces, as if he was being charged down by a grizzly bear, the stand off taking place, his eyes wide. He wanted to run, get the hell out of here. What the hell was she doing here? In this neighborhood. But all thoughts ceased when he stumbled into a cereal display falling back the whole thing collapsed ontop of him and a crowd of onlookers began to approach. She stood rooted to the spot. The list fal ling. Her purse falling. There was no way. Was there?? God no... God yes? She was so confused. She didnt even feel the few people pass her and help him up.
Tony looked up again his eyes searching for hers. He met her gaze in the distance. A woman asked him if he was alright, suddenly consumed with the urge to see her, see her in the flesh and Tony swallowed and replied absently...
"Yeah Im fine."
He stood up slowly, walking away from the crowd and began to approach Ana slowly. Brushing some of the cereal off his shoulder, she looked like she had just seen a ghost herself. Swallowing again, he had no clue what to say, not even in the slightest. Waiting till he was almost standing just a couple feet away he asked her quietly...
"How's it going?"
His head was still spinning, by some fluke they ended up in the same place at the same time, in this city with a population of 5 million people. He wasnt sure if it was fate or some cruel joke. Meeting her gaze with hurt coating over his eyes, and anxiousness, he waited for her reply.
Suddenly feeling as if she had never learned how to talk, she opened her mouth. "Tony?" It couldnt be. He died in her arms over a year ago. She remembered screaming. Shouting. Crying. Telling him to come back to her. Demanding it. She shook her head in disbelief and started backing up herself. "How could..."
Tony saw the shock in Ana's eyes and instantly knew this was a bad idea. He shouldnt have gone back up to her. Taking in her appearance, despite where they were, she looked beautiful as ever.
He looked horrible. Unshaven. Hair toussled. And the most attractive man she'd ever met in her life. Her heart was racing miles a minute.
"Miss? You dropped this." A store clerk handed her that damn l ist and her purse. Shoving hair behind her ear she said "Thanks." This time her voice shaking.
Tony looked back at the clerk and then Ana, both of them just watching at eachother as if they were seeing a ghost brought to life, waiting for the other shoe to drop. But for some reason he couldnt leave. There was something about her he found intoxicating. Staring into her rich brown eyes.
Her hands shook and she continued to stand there in her denim jeans and tight black top. Her raven hair reaching her waist and flowing free. "I can't..." He just stared at her and she wasn't sure what she wanted to do. Run into his arms or demand why he was alive and standing there in front of her?!
"Listen Ana." He blurted finding his voice all of the sudden, Tony held out his hand, feeling the tension, he could cut it with a knife if he had to, knowing where this was going, he shook his head and replied...
"Dont."
Even a s she looked at him, he couldnt take the look under pressure20she gave him. All of the hurt and disbeleif, confusion on her face, and al l of the sudden he didnt want to do this. No it was a very bad bad idea. He knew what went down with her in the last year.
"What the hell Tony?" Tears now forming in her eyes. Emotion showing in her face. If he was alive...it could have saved all the pain she'd been through over the year. All the dread she had for her son having no father. The tears fell now more steadily.
"Ana, dont do this..just let it go..." He pleaded backing away.
"Tell me." She demanded now. Voice no longer shaky. "Tell me Tony."
"I cant." He replied casting her an angst filled look, feeling all the pain he had been holding down for the last year rise to the surface.
"I just, cant." He shook his head and grabbed his sunglasses striding out of the store, groceries forgotten. He had to get out of here like a fish needed to get out of its net. And Tony got on his bike, started it up and was out of there within 5 seconds.
Anger coming into play now, Anas frustration grew as she watched him walk away from her, looking as if he couldnt handle it anymore and watched him go to his motorcycle. And her heart felt as if he'd just stabbed it. "Wha...what are you doing?"
He was halfway down the road in his cycle and she ran to h er car. Feeling as if she'd lost control of the world, her world, she couldnt even think as she followed him. Breaking all kinds of laws to keep up. She barely turned off her car as she finally stopped and ran out, following him to his...apartment??? He was living and breathing and...and she didnt even know it?
Tony got inside, rushing so quickly he didnt know what to do. He had to think. He had to pack, and get out of here. Looking around for something to hold his stuff, that was until he heard his back door slam open, and a blaze of lightning stride up to him.
"What are you doing here?" He asked, surprised to see her as she cornered him.
She grabbed his jacket and slammed him against his door. Fire in her brown eyes, she looked into his blue eyes and demanded, "What the hell is goin g on Tony?! Why are you running away from me?! Why did you do this to me?!" Her voice in agony now, raspy and hard at the same time. Tears falling down her face. "I loved you Tony!! You faked your death to get away from me?!! We were only married for a few days when you died!! ANSWER ME GODDAMMIT!!" She shook him and slammed him again. "TELL ME WHY!!!!!" Her breathing was hard and out of control.
He met her gaze, hating himself for wan ting to kiss her senseless right then and he shook his hea d, shaking his momentary haze of weakness off. The anger returning, he stood his g round.
"You wanna know why Ana? You wanna know WHY???" He asked with voice raised. And met her gaze challengingly.
"You son of a bitch!" Her heart aching with every word. Fire shooting from his eyes into hers and vice versa. "Of course I wanna know why!"
And he shook his head brushing her off.
"Why dont you ask Captain Gault then?"
Her face tore into disbelief. "What?"
His words were cutting and he shook his head and he added with bite...
"He was able to give you what you always wanted and you moved on just fine without me!"
How did he know she was dealing with that asshole Gault?? "You've been spying on me?" Her voice in absolute astonishment. But he didnt even answer her.
"So tell me Ana....Why are YOU Here?" His gaze locked into hers with a blaze of liquid fire boring into her in challenge of a dual. Her back was somehow against the wall now, his voice growing lighter, the emotion threatening to break through he added, as his voice cracked slightly...
"Why did you come back?" Tonys eyes never left hers, as he demanded a reply.
Her face fell then. She couldnt take it. That question was her undoing. Breathing a little less harshly now, her voice shook as she said, "Do you really not know why?"
And then he couldnt hold back anymore. His body betrayed him as his lips reached down and took a searing kiss from her. It was an angry punishing kiss, his gaze briefly met hers, and he saw the flicker of fire in her eyes match his. And then he backed her against the wall and picked her legs up in his arms. He could feel his stiffness threaten to break through the hard fabric of his denims. She grabbed his shoulders roughly and her tough wall came crumbling down. She kissed him back with all the sadness and happiness she felt at the moment. And he felt so good in her arms. He was real. This wasnt one of her dreams. Her hands went into his hair and she yanked as their tongues emitted smoke.
He couldnt do it. As much as his head was screaming at him to abort abort, walk away, run!!! His body forced him to stay.
His hands pulled and yanked at the hem of her hot little tank top. Struggling to get it off over her head, a lace covered breast exposed as he finally got her other arm. She moaned loudly and her neck went up as he kissed her neck. She rushed to start peeling his clothes off. Noticing the change in her body, her breasts were fuller, hips rounder and it only made him want her more. Not wanting to say anything, he knew words would ruin this moment, he backed her into the couch. And yanked his own shirt off like his skin was on fire. Ana grunted as she fell and continued pu lling him to her. Wanting him closer...wanting him in her and pushing through her body. Pressing his heated lips to hers he came back inhaling her taste. It was rushed, hot, heavy, passionate. So many emotions rising to the surface, it had been far too long. Tony bit her lips, his own tongue pushing back into her like a dragons fire, he kissed her sensually, roughly, as he pinned her back between the worn cushions of the sofa.
Ana continued to groan and a monster of need consumed her body. She hadn't had sex since that night Tony died. With him. On their bed. She felt the blazing passion still as if they hadn't been seperated for a little over a year. Tony grunted as he felt the heat of her crotch press against his, his fingers fumbled with her button and zipper and he yanked her pants down to her knees. Followed by her panties. Grunting and feeling free and wild, she reached for his boxers and longed to feel his cock inside of her body. She yelped his name in the flurry of action. There was no time to think, he was on pure autopilot right now, his blood boiling. It had been a year, over a year since he had felt her move below him, since he had allowed himself any sexual pleasure. And it had been far far far too long. Not even getting a chance to remove her bra, the hunger was s o great, in under two seconds he had his pants down sub merging his raging desire down deep inside her. She let out a small scream and dug her fingernails into his back. And in his mind he flashed to a different place and time. One that took him to a new atmosphere of pleasure. She was so sweet, so tender, so tight. Ana didnt wrap her legs around him. The need so great she lifted her knees up and flopped them as wide as she could. Taking it slow at first he let his weight settle and then he tried to shake himself out of his joy. Going harder, faster. His lips came down on hers once more biting her mouth schorching her. Tony felt Ana's legs rise to ride his hips and he almost couldnt resist. It was like they were molded for eachother. All of the torture and agony, what was taken from them. He wanted to hurt. Going harder and faster he pried her legs apart and slid in deeper. She screamed his name over and over again. It felt so fucking good. It was so hard. The hardest they'd ever had it. And she knew what fueled them. Knew what fueled him to literally try and go through her body. Ana felt herself begin to shake and orgasm. God how she needed this. God how she needed Tony!
He groaned when he felt the floodgates open. It came fast and hard and he wasnt prepared, a final surrender. And thats when he saw the white light. She joined him and their fluids entwined with each other. She shook and shook until the la st drops were done. When Tony came back down from i t, his gaze locked in on Ana's. Her forehead balmy from the hot heavy sex, her eyes lucid, h er lips swollen. And he looked into her eyes, remembering what they had. It all came rushing back. What he did to her.
Breathing hard and holding his upper arms. She stared at him through wide eyes. Eyes that were confused as hell. Their bodies were still connected and their stomachs and chests took turns pushing each other as they both continued to try and catch breath. Tears started forming in her eyes and she touched his face. "Tony." She whispered with love...with so much love it was overwhelming.
As they continued to lay there, he still inside of her and their hands touching affectionately, she told him about her year of emotional hell. How Gault came back in her life and demanded a paternity test, swearing the baby was his. How she had to deal with him coming and visiting the son she knew wasnt his, but he got a fucking court order to legally visit him. And with a soft voice she told Tony how the baby wasn't his when the results came back. Ana had took Tonys toothbrush, which she never threw away, and through that dna it proved Tony was indeed the father.
A year they could never get back and what did he have to show for it?
Tony felt tears prick his eyes, seeing her again as if it was the first time and he buried his face into her neck. Showing weaknes s unintentionally, he proclaimed with a meager whimper into her soft salty skin...
"Im so sorry baby..."
Ana put her arms around his neck and closed her eyes, squeezing him tight. "Baby...oh god..." she said helplessly.
Holding her to him, Tony couldnt let go. She was like a safety blanket and she had freed him from his plaster prison. And he pressed his scruffy cheek to hers as his armed wrapped tightly around her. Genuinely regretful. He couldnt bear to hurt her, and he plead again...
"Im so so sorry for not being there..."
Tony whispered and pulled back to meet her gaze once more, two lost souls, searching for answers in the other, his eyes melted, as his palm came up to wipe the sweaty hair from her forehead. Pleading with her for forgiveness his tortured eyes said it all.
In that moment she didnt care where he was this entire time. Her love for him was so strong, she didnt need an explanation. By God he was back. And that was all that mattered. "Tony," she closed her eyes for a brief second, it felt so good to say his name and to see his face answer to it. "I love you."
"I love you too." He replied, meaning it. It was the first thing that meant something to him in a year. And his soulful gaze met hers. Her finger traced his lips. Ana pushed him onto his back on the uncomfortable sofa and straddled him. This tim e she took her bra off and let her breasts bounce gently. This time she was going to take it slow. This time she was going to celebrate because she had her husband back. He could explain whenever he was ready to. She didnt care. And as she straddled his cock and pushed down on him, head flying back in surrender and sheer pleasure, she knew he loved her back.
And that was all that mattered.
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Tony spent most of that afternoon in bed. Pulling Ana into his arms he told her about Widmore and the agency he worked for. How he had been in a coma for 3 months after Ben shot him and then it took another 3 months to rehabilitate him. From there he underwent training and operated in the surveilance division. It wasnt police work, but it was something. He still had to adjust to accepting she wasnt with Ben anymore though. Tony wasnt sure if Widmore just didnt know, or she got caught up in all of this by accident? It was alot to take in, in one afternoon. They both agreed that they still had one common enemy however--Benjamin Linus.
Still naked and now in his pathetic cot he called a bed. She lay in his arms and listened as he explained what his life had been like for the entire year. She had a few questions, and he answered every single on of them. His hand traced her breast back and forth and she traced his arm. After another round of sex, Ana finally asked Tony.
"Would you like to meet your son?"
Tony met Ana's gaze the words 'your son' resounding in his head and he felt his eyes cloud up once more.
"He's really mine?" He asked quietly, knowing it was true, but he had to repeat it just to make sure.
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She kissed the palm of his hand, "He looks just like you." She turned his hand around and kissed the other side, then her dark eyes looked up into his gorgeous eyes. "What do you say?"
Creasing his brows, Tony met Ana's gaze for a long moment, feeling nervous, excited, and scared all at once and he finally nodded his head in answer, his fingers trailed her lips and he finally replied before kissing her...
"Okay."
The next hour was a blur for Tony, he felt as if he had lived a lifetime, never even imagining that it was possible, that he had a child, Tony tried to make up for lost time and not keep his head from exploding, he let Ana lead the way. Thinking this was just a normal day. He was meeting his son after being astranged from his wife for over a year. Never in a million thinking that this would happen today. He rode back to her house on his motorcycle and waited while she picked up the baby at her grandmothers. When she brought him into her humble home, his old house,&nbs p;it was like stepping back into his old li fe. Feeling familiar yet different too. Alot of time had passed between them, Ana was a mother now.
"Oh wow, he's big!" Tony exclaimed when Ana proudly lifted the baby out of his carseat and handed him to his father.
"I like keeping him nice and fat." Ana said with a nervous laugh.
Tony didnt have much experience with infants, rather like a fish out of water, it was clear who the natural father was, but when he looked into his sons eyes, he knew without a shadow of a doubt that he was his.
Photographs didnt do him justice.
Ana smiled with tears in her eyes. Never ever thinking that this could happen for real...almost not believing that this was happening for real.
"Hey little guy!" Little Tony gurgled and Tony smiled awkwardly. He looked at his face again studying him..."You have your mothers mouth." Tony noticed, grinning sheepishly back at Ana. She let out a sardonic laugh and rolled her eyes playfully.
Tony couldnt beleive how much he looked like both of them, there was no doubt ever that they were this kids parents. And he gasped in awe, shifting him into a cradle position awkwardly Tony shook his head and he remarked to Ana...
"He's a beautiful baby."
"Thats cause he's ours." Ana said quietly, staring at Tony. She could never stop staring at h im.
He closed his eyes for a moment, unable to beleive this moment was real pulling little Tony up to his chest. And Tony met Ana's gaze with creased eyebrows. He had missed out on so so much. Having a million thoughts and questions for her, he wanted to know how her pregnancy went, was it difficult, was it painful, was her labor with him long? Was it lonely raising him on her own? How much did he weigh when he was born? And when was it she actually began to feel like a mother? Ana could see his questioning gaze and with her eyes and heart told him she'd have every answer ready as soon as he asked.
He sat down with Ana, and baby Tony, and held his little hand in his. Bouncing him in his lap, Tony had no idea of what he was doing was right, looking to Ana for guidance. She nodded with encouragement and his son started playing with the scruff on his face. Tony wiggled his mustache, because it tickeld and then he sneezed and the baby laughed. Ana sat back and watched and laughed, wiping the tears off of her face. Dammit but she couldnt stop them from coming down.
Chuckling he looked back at Ana and he added...
"I think he likes the facial hair."
"We'll take care of that later." She said with a smile, longing to see his face the way she remembered it.
Winking back at Ana, they carried on for awhile. Tony never getting enough of it. And he watched Ana feed him. Noting how wonderful she was and how beautiful.
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She finally put Anthony Jr. to bed and walked back into the kitchen with an apprehensive Tony standing there. He wasnt sure what to say, there was so much to say and yet there was nothing.
And she stood there looking back at him in pause.
Needing to reconnect with her, he had to make things right. He loved Ana more than words. There was no denying it. And Tony started rambling as he played with a frayed piece of fabric on the dish towel, finally meeting Ana's gaze intensely...
"I..I lost my ring..." He looked down at his feet guiltily and Tony licked his lips in thought...Adding..."I didnt get anything back from that night..."
Her throat and heart ached in that moment. Trying to imagine what he'd been through and how hard it must have been for him. There was so many things she wanted to say, the words couldnt come out.
He looked into her eyes, his heart telling her what he wanted most, that he was hers, that he loved her, and Tony asked her...
"Do you think we...we could try again? Start over?"
Still in her heels, they clicked across the kitchen floor as she walked up to him and put her hands on his chest. Her eyes big and full of longing and need, her heart pounding without her control. She wanted to scream yes, but once again the words were stuck in her throat by tears.
He didnt know if it was possible, as long as theyd been apart, if they were different people now, and he didnt know beans about being a father. Looking down again he asked taking her hand....
"Would you take me as your husband twice Ana?"
Not knowing if it was a mistake to just try to jump back into things, but he didnt think he could take it slow with her. No, after this afternoon and their little romp, or multiple romps around his apartment, he could no longer stay away from her, and his eyes searched hers, yearning for her answer to be yes.
A single tear dropped from her eye, then another one, followed by more. Her nose red from crying. She was used to crying from pain, not this new joy that settled in her heart. Her fingers entwined with his and she said, "Yes Tony," her voice ragged with emotion, she buried her face in his neck, "Yes."
He let out a breath he didnt know he was holding, Ana making him the happiest man on earth. He didnt know how it was possible, to be so lucky twice in his life.
They stood there and hugged for a few minutes and she turned her head up, feeling his scruffy chin and rose her lips to meet his. Her tongue swoope d into his mouth and she knew that right then and there she needed him inside of her. The kiss heated up. Burning with all consuming desire, she backed him up against the sink an d rubbed her body against his, feeling his cock grow in his pants. She reached down and unbuckled and unbuttoned and unzipped and tore off his boxers while he did the same to her. Both still in shirts but naked in the bottom, she jumped up and straddled him, feeling his big hands lift her and hold her ass. Not being able to take it any longer, she grunted as she came down on him and felt his stiff cock enter her body. Tony couldnt mention doing anything else in this moment. It was like an event orchestrated by the stars above and nothing was getting in the way of his love for her. Not an avalanche or an earthquake or tsunami, nothing. This was a celebration of love and life and second chances. They continued to kiss as she felt him try to walk them to their room. Their room. Ana was filled with so much joy she couldnt contain herself. "Tony," she moaned and then yelped as he threw her down on the bed.
"Fuck me hard." She said in a ragged voice and reached her arms up. "Now."
That entire night was spent rediscovering each others bodies. They made love in every position imaginable. They made love to each other with their mouths. And they made love in every spot in the room and bathroom. They laughed together in between and they cried together one time as they slowly made love and just stared into each others eyes, not believing this was happening. It was a beautiful night. He slept with her. Both naked entwined, her inner thighs moist, his face laying on her breasts. She peeled her eyes open as sunlight streamed in from the dawn sun and she prepared herself for her sons crying for milk. At the moment, all was still quiet and she suddenly felt Tonys fingers fondle her. She was still very wet and her nub still a bit swollen. She moved her hips against his fingers, their eyes closed, her fingers through his hair as he began to suckle a nipple. Without words, without a good morning, or a how are you doing, they started making love again. Ana was on cloud 9. Tony breathed in her scent, loving to feel her body react to him. It was like second nature to feel himself inside her. It was beautiful love making, slow and sensual, totaly erotic as their bodies hummed in vibrations, thousands of tiny sensations waking up muscles and joints as they moved. He kissed her mouth and kissed her again, wanting to feel her closer to him, he kissed and kissed again, unable to break the connection, he felt his body react to hers and finally surrender. Both of them enjoying the slow humming euphoria as orgasmic bliss was conquered. He confessed looking back at Ana his arm braced over her chest and his chin resting on his arm as he looked back at20her under long lashes... "I had dreams about you you know..."
She smiled. Knowing that she also had many dreams about him as well.
His face was calm, almost peaceful and serene, the pain gone overnight as their bodies mended all the heartache away and Tony smiled faintly... "I tried to so many times...but I could never forget."
She touched his face softly.
Tony creased his brows, remembering the agony he felt of living a life without her and he leaned in to brush his lips over hers softly and he added in almost a whisper his voice cracking with emotion as his lips curved upwards... "But you cant forget love, can you?"
"Never." She said in a quiet voice.
Smirking back at her, he leaned in to kiss her again, just so happy that she was here with him. That she hadnt forgotten about him, that they had this second chance to start again. Minutes after they finished, the baby started crying and she reluctantly pulled herself out of bed and put her robe on. She told him she'd be back and that his shaving kit was still under the sink and that he might wanna use it. "If I didnt know better Id say Donna Reed was hiding under that robe of yours..." He call ed after her, smiling. Laughing, she went to go and take care of their son. Tony noticed how good Ana was at this, how prepared she was, how attuned she was to the needs of her son...their son. Tony smiled after her not having the luxury of a robe yet, he slid his legs over the side of the bed and found his boxers discarded on the floor. Stretching he had lingering after thoughts of what she meant by using a razor. And he put his hands up to his jaw, feeling the rough stubble. Yeah it was particularily sharp wasnt it. Tony chuckled to himself and muttered smartly.. "Yes dear, I can take a hint." Tony was almost to the bathroom when he heard a muffled ring. Creasing his brows in confusion, he didnt think anything of it, until he heard it again, finally recognizing the ring as his phone. "Shit." Tony, realized it was his phone that was ringing and he went on a quest to find his pants. Finally almost stumbling over them in the living room, he pulled the phone out of his pocket 2 seconds before the call went to voice mail, he flipped it open and answered... "Hello?" "Brady?" All of the sudden a pit fell to the bottom of Tony's stomach , knowing that voice, his happy blissful morning over now, he looked back to see if Ana was around and he answered finally taking the phone into the next room just incase... "Yeah? What is it Mr. Widmore." Widmore announced in his fake british accent..."We have a problem." "Well?" Tony asked waiting impatiently wanting to know what it was. "It looks like one of Bens agents was found murdered, Martin Keamy. His body was tossed into the side of a canyon in the Colorado Rockies, and he was carrying intel, on this organization..I need you to go and retrieve it for me Brady." Tony creased his brows, not wanting to go back here, he couldnt leave Ana, he couldnt put her at risk...But these men he worked for, Widmore, they were killers. He had seen it happen on more than one occasion. An agent went missing and he never comes back. Tony didnt think he could live with himself if he put Ana through that again. "I dont know..." He finally answered truthfully, and Widmore replied his frustration apparent... "What do you mean you dont know Brady? This isnt a yes or no question, this needs tending to, and I need you out there on the next train to Boulder." Tony closed his eyes, thinking about last night, and this morning, and everything he and Ana had gone through and found. Could he do this to her again? "Need I remind you that without my employment, youd just be a dead man Brady?" Widmore added threateningly and Tony finally surrendered, understanding his full meaning, he finally replied... "Yeah fine, Ill be at the train station, dont call me again Mr. Widmore, Ill call you." "Fine." Widmore concluding clicking off his end of the phone, hanging up on Tony. Sighing, Tony didnt know where to begin. How could he tell Ana about this after everything theyd been through together. He didnt know how fragile their relationship was yet. He didnt even know what he beleived anymore. The whole Widmore thing a bed of lies. But he knew that if he didnt go, if he didnt do this for Charles Widmore, the man would hunt him down, and he would hunt Ana down if he found out he was with Ana. Not knowing how Tony would do this, he figured he would just do it fast and then get out. He had to keep her and their son safe. He couldn't mix his new life with Widmore with his old one with Ana. Finding the rest of his clothing he dressed. Ana was in the kitchen feeding little Tony with his bottle when he found her. She lifted him up and he burped a nice big hea lthy burp and it made Ana laugh. His heart breaking into a thousand pieces when he saw what an amazing woman she was, what a beautiful picture they made, mother and son. Deciding to keep it brief, not tell her too much, he didnt want her to get hurt, and Tony finally replied. "Listen baby, I gotta run up to Colorado for a few days...Just business stuff..." Lying because he didnt even know when he'd be back. Ana didnt deserve this from him...but he couldnt jeopardize the two people he loved most in this world.
Ana looked up, first startled to hear his voice, she had been so enamored with their son, and then startled to hear what he said. "Wait...what?" She got up and placed little Tony in his bassinet with his rattle and followed him.
"What the hell did you just say? You're...youre leaving me?"
He grabbed his jacket and leaned in to kiss her, explaining... "Ill fill you in when I get back."
"When will you get back?" She asked, not affected by the kiss. Wanting to know why the hell he was leaving like this. "Im talking to you!"
He didnt want to show her the fear in his eyes, kissing her again quickly and then he kissed little Tonys forehead he proclaimed to Ana, his gaze flickering in on hers for a second... "I love you."
"Tony!" She shouted after him.
Before she could even object, he was out the door. Tony couldnt bear to see her hurt again. Wondering if someone like him would just be better off staying away from her. But he couldnt stay apart from her. Tony slid into his arms and moved at a fast pace out to his bike. If he closed his eyes, he almost couldnt hear her crying. And he started up his Harley... "Im sorry." Tony whispered under his breath. And then he zoomed off under the rain. ------- Whistles blew as different trains left for different destinations. He stopped by his place and quickly packed a small bag and took a cab to the train station. Walking to the platform which was outside, holding his small bag, he could feel it in his gut that this wasnt right. Something wasnt right. No he couldnt do this. He couldnt. He loved her more than words. He couldnt do it.
But to keep them all safe, he had to. It wasn't fair to her to bring her into his life now. He worked for Widmore and he most likely would until he died. Feeling like ten kinds of assholes, he stood in the rain as the train pulled up and steam filled the air. Ana drove to her grandmothers house and quickly dropped off the baby. Her grandmother didn't know what was going on but by the wild look in Anas eyes, she had a feeling. After saying she'd be back later, she ran out and drove recklessly towards Tonys place. Good good, she thought. His motorcycle was still there.
She banged on his door and there was no answer. Using her shoulder and a pin to pick the lock, she rammed into his apartment with all her strength. "Tony!!" She felt an eerie sense of doom and put a hand to her forehead, trying to catch her breath. She wouldnt let him leave her. Wouldnt let him out of her life. If she had to fight tooth and nail, she would. Turning around she looked at the floor and saw scribble on a notepad.
Los Angeles Train Station Los Angeles CA to Boulder CO 9am
She looked at her watch. It was 8:45am and the station was twenty minutes away.
Heart hammering, she said desperately, "Hell no." And ran to her car to break all kinds of driving laws. "ALL ABOARD!!"
The signal was called and people started lining up to get on the train. Getting wet and not caring, he waited for his turn to get on. Looking like a ruined man. Ana parked her car in front of the station in the middle of the road, not caring if her car was towed. All she knew was that she had to get to Tony. She ran and ran through the station, bumping into people, looking for the gate that Tony entered. Her mind was desperate. It was 9:01am as she ran out to the proper gate.
The train was leaving.
"NOO!" She cried out and followed the train along the platform, running at high speed, rain drenching her now. Crying, she stopped when the platform ended and watched helplessly as the train continued on.
Feeling helpless. And hopeless. And feeling a bout of depression about to hit her, she turned around slowly as the steam cleared. Looking straight ahead, not knowing what she'd do next, she stopped. Her heart stopped.
It was Tony. He was standing there in the rain staring back at her. A sob ripped from Anas throat and she ran into his arms and he welcomed her. "I couldnt do it...I couldnt..." His voice broke off emotionally... He put his hand up to cup her jaw as she looked up at him with those beautiful brown eyes.
Tears streamed down her face.
"I dont know whats going to happen now.. But I couldnt leave you again baby!!!"
"Oh just shut the hell up!!" And her mouth smashed into his in a hard kiss.
They stood like that kissing...and kissing...and kissing...in the rain...
In that beautiful, long kiss, they told each other all they needed to know. No matter what, they were sticking together. Whatever problems Widmore threw their way, they'd face it together. He was going to see his baby boy grow up and he was going to live to celebrate their first anniversary and 50th. His hand resting on her rain soaked cheek, through her hair, down her back, lifting her up high, they stood there, in the rain. Knowing this was where they were meant to be. This was the life they were meant to lead.
